Green787878
(I assume Green1-787877 were taken when he made the username) on reddit
submitted a question to me the other day.
“I would be interested in hearing how your training has affected your personal life. Such as your discipline and physique - how that affects your relationship with family, friends, co-workers, etc. You've been doing this for a long time so I'm sure you'd have some interesting anecdotes to share.”
I liked the
idea of exploring this topic, as it’s something I’ve addressed in round about
ways before but never really dove into head on.
And head on is always the best way to do things
And head on is always the best way to do things
I’ve
commented in the past about how my sense of normalcy is fundamentally flawed as
a result of my training and lifestyle.
This manifests in ways such as drinking a gallon of water in under an
hour at a meeting and having it cause the person leading it so much distress
that they called for a bathroom break for MY sake, or how, after rupturing my
ACL I didn’t understand why people were making such a big deal about it and how
upset they got when I joked about it and told them I was still training. I am fully aware that I am an outlier and
that what I do is not normal, but not so fully aware of to what DEGREE what I
do isn’t normal. I’ve been living like
this for so long that I can “forget” how normal humans function.
However,
that’s more about how people interact with me, rather than the other way
around. Being fully honest and aware of
myself, I am severely lacking in empathy amongst other humans. Specifically, I have zero understanding or
capacity to understand how or why people let adversity deter them from
accomplishing their goals. This isn’t a
lack of sympathy, it’s legitimately a lack of empathy; I simply do not grasp
this idea. It ends up manifesting as a
lack of sympathy, because people approach me and share their stories and, in my
inability to relate, I offer them no solace.
Still a great movie
Still a great movie
Adversity
can slow you down, this is absolutely true, but unless it is death, I do not
see why it stops you. In the competition
where I ruptured my ACL, tore my meniscus and fractured my patella, I was in
Monterrey CA, where there was an awesome aquarium. As part of the trip to the competition, I
told my kid that we’d go to the aquarium the day after the competition. After I blew out my knee, I went back to my
hotel, took a shower, wrapped my knee up in a knee sleeve, woke up the next day
and limped around the aquarium with a cane for 4 hours before driving home for
another 4. I made a promise, I had a
goal, and I accomplished it. Yeah, I had
to deal with an injury, but I wasn’t dead, so why would I be stopped?
And the same
was true with training; I started Matt Kroc’s 16 week detailed bodybuiding
program out of the book “Insane Training” that Monday, since I wanted to do
something different while my knee healed.
Saturday was squat day, so I grabbed my squat box, set it as high as I
could, and did squats with the buffalo bar for as many reps as I could. Yeah, it wasn’t much, but it was something. And then I also trained the whole way through
surgical recovery and physical therapy.
A lot of people would just stop training entirely until they were fully
healed, and I literally cannot understand WHY they do that.
Not the first time I've been baffled
Not the first time I've been baffled
I’ve got
other stories too that objectively I KNOW are crazy and stupid but emotionally
I cannot understand why. I set a
deadlift PR 24 hours after being discharged from the hospital for severe
dehydration due to gastroenteritis, woke up at 0445 to lift after rolling over
in the middle of the night and dislocating my shoulder, regularly train after
only getting 2-3 hours of sleep, etc etc. I don’t think of these things as
significant; it’s just getting through life.
People have to put up with way worse crap than I do just to eek out an
existence.
Unfortunately,
the consequence of making this a habit is that it’s warped my sense of normalcy,
so I don’t understand why others find it so weird nor do I understand why THEY
don’t do it. It’ll hurt? So what: pain is temporary. So is discomfort, and injury. It’s nihilistic to be sure, but everything is
temporary really. It means I tend to
come across as cold and disconnected when it comes to dealing with a lot of
problems and emotions, but on the other side of the coin, I tend to be sought
out for objective opinions, decision making, or simply getting stuff done
regardless of costs.
Much like this; it's cool at first, but eventually people get tired of it
Much like this; it's cool at first, but eventually people get tired of it
In regards
to physique, I’ll try to be a bit more brief, but basically I spend the
majority of my social interactions attempting to overcome the presupposed image
people generate about me via my physical appearance. Most people tend to assume I’m some sort of
meathead and that I’m gruff and abrasive and intimidating, so in turn I try to
tell a joke about every other sentence.
Lots of smiles, lots of levity, and just trying to kill people with
kindness. If I can do that well, I tend
to find myself in more advantageous positions compared to my peers, because
being larger and in shape does seem to automatically generate some degree of
respect compared to being fat or scrawny, and if people think you possess a modicum
of intelligence to go with it, it carries you far.
I DO have to
contend with a lot of stupid jokes about my size/strength all the time. Humans like things simple and categorized,
and once they’ve categorized something, they like to mock it to minimize
it. People will make dumb creatine jokes
or flex in front of me or feel up my arms.
It’s something I’m at terms with.
I remember Mike Tucscherer was once asked if he got tired of all the
dumb jokes people made about him being so big, and he said “If I didn’t want to
deal with it, I wouldn’t be 275lbs”.
That resonated with me pretty well.
But it also means it’s something I have to be aware of constantly. If a 150lb dude shouts at someone or gets a
little aggressive, people tend not to care, but if I start showing aggression
it can get misinterpreted as legitimate assault pretty quickly.
This is
already getting pretty long winded, but just a comical aside to mention is how
much my mentality can “infect” those around me.
My wife and I have been together in some capacity for 13 years, and she’s
been a big part of the process for me.
She’s seen me accomplish some pretty ridiculous things, and it’s not set
HER bar for normalcy ALSO off course.
Her expectations for what men can do are pretty high, because to her, I’m
just her goofball husband, not some sort of high standard or mark for my
gender. In a comical anecdote, one time,
my dad sold some sort of Weider all in one home gym on craigslist, and a guy
and his son came by to pick it up. They
showed up with a bunch of tools and started taking the whole thing apart to put
in their truck to move. My wife was
watching and getting frustrated that it was taking so long, and she leaned in
and whispered “Why don’t they just pick it up and put it on the truck: this is
taking forever?” My wife and I have
moved 5 times since we’ve been together, and she’s seen me carry full
bookshelves, marble topped end tables, dinning tables, etc etc, all by myself,
so in her mind that’s just a thing men do.
I had to lean back and whisper to her “Because not all men are your
husband.”
It made her
blush.
"Where I fit in..."
ReplyDeleteI clicked expecting a sex joke...
....did not get a sex joke!
Believe me, with how beat up I am, getting into that topic would be a whole other animal, haha.
DeleteI feel the lack of empathy. I often have to mentally account for it when dealing with people. I have very little patience for people complaining about something when they're making no effort to solve their problem.
ReplyDeleteUnderstanding the need people have to vent about their frustrations while taking no actions to actually solve it is a learned skill. I've learned that most of my failures are a direct result of my own actions, and I try to own them as much as I can. I have a guitar gathering dust in my closet that I am awful with, because I don't practice scales ever. Rather than complain about what an awful guitar player I am, I recognize it's simply not a priority in my life. Many people don't seem to realize that you're only going to succeed at what you prioritize.
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